I think a lot about not thinking.
I think about meditating a lot too, but I'm ususally just sitting there.
I think about being kind and present a lot, but catch myself far too often distracted and not kind.
I think a lot about innovative and fun ways to help and serve people, but often don't follow through.
I think a lot about relationships and how I can show up more fully more consistently, yet still often fall short of my best.
I think a lot about reading and studying and practicing more, but often just watch the show or swipe away on here instead.
So as you see--and I suspect many of you also experience, there is cognitive dissonance, which Siri says is "the state of having inconsistent thoughts, beliefs, or attitudes, especially as relating to behavioral decisions and attitude change." So how do we line up our good thoughts with our actions? Do we need a coach? A program? Rigidity? Discipline? How do we do the thing we think/say/intend to do? I don't really know.
But I'm glad I have yoga and practice. It all ebbs and flows in "adorably human" ways, but it is forever my heart-mind-body-soul reminder to return again and again to this very moment. And it's in THIS moment where life happens --where I can decide right now which road to take. Whether to lean in, or retract, choose ME/MY/I, or you/us/we/All Beings. I try for the latter.
And i know I'll keep messing up everyday and doing the thing I told myself I wouldn't. And that's okay. I'll keep trying. I'll keep falling and getting back up again while my legs still work.
And at the end of the day, we are perfect beings. If the big love that is God had intended us to do everything perfectly, well, life would feel deterministic and predictive and kind of lame. I love the mystery and the mess ups and the surprises and the WONDER! Keep wondering. Happy Monday! See you somewhere