Sometimes I think I shouldn't be teaching Yoga.
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Like many of you I suspect, I feel like an imposter, as if I'm just waiting until someone finds out I have absolutely no idea.
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We spend years trying on different "outfits" to see what fits and feels right. We may be primed for, or born with certain traits that make us more suitable for certain careers, partners, practices, etc., but I never liked the idea that I have "found" my calling or arrived at the "right" thing. I like the idea that life is a play of sorts that will still be unfolding until my last breath.
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I think I'm a decent student and practitioner of yoga, with mountains of anatomy, philosophy, subtle body, mantra, Sanskrit, history, sequencing, and awarnessness that I haven't even begun to tackle. I feel like a total beginner at yoga in many ways. In fact, I suspect many students who I am blessed to serve know far more about yoga than I ever will.
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But, yoga has also taught me self awareness. I am a good facilitator. I'm good at helping people find joy in simple moments. I'm good at pushing people and also telling them what to do. I'm good at telling dad jokes, and also really inappropriate ones, too. I'm good at creating an experience that allows people to feel safe and soulful and playful and loved and forgiven and happy and sad and angry and deeply present and also to notice that they are mentally thousands of miles away.
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My colleagues and teachers KNOW yoga in a way I likely never will. And while I'll keep learning, I'm becoming more okay with this. And I'll teach what is alive for me-- I'll share the filiments of what yoga awakens in me in real life. I vow to keep it all alive and related to our lives in this modern American Trumpedout paraigm we find ourselves. I'll do my best to keep seeing you, and seeing through the masks that you wear. And I vow to keep teaching whatever it is that I'm teaching. Sometimes it's Yoga, and other times it's just the reminder to find a softness when you're having a shitty day.
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Thank you for coming along with me, in the flesh or on this little pixelated rectangle. I'm always nearby.

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