Make the attitude of gratitude more than just a banal platitude.
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Keep saying thank you for ALL of it. Don't reserve thank you for your barista after you get a coffee or after something great happens. Say your thank you's especially when things are shitty and hard and it's the last thing you want to think or say. The darkness is your teacher. Keep bowing to everything and everyone. See grace dancing right in front of you--whatever you're doing or seeing or thinking. Whatever is present in your field, see God--and this is a very personal notion of God that only you can really ever know and understand.
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I can really only speak for myself (ever), but I find that I grow most when I'm challenged and angry and sad and resentful and small and petty and distracted and jealous and just consumed in shadow stuff. As crappy as these aspects and feelings may feel in the moment--however low I may sink, I 'usually' come out wiser on the other side. We rarely grow very much when things are easy and simple and comfortable...which, I realize now upon writing this, is partly why I enjoy and often opt for the simple...because I can stay out of the fire/darkness/challenge/muck. Yet even through this contentment I watch my dark and light aspects come and go, dancing with my ego and ideas and judgments and opinions. And when I really zoom out, I remember the big love that some call God. The weight of my "stuff" is suddenly lighter and I just feel so damn lucky to even be alive. It wasn't guaranteed and tomorrow isn't either. So I keep doing my best to milk each moment for exactly what it is--not needing to change or fix it. It's hard, but boy does it make life something to behold and bow to every single day.
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So I try to love and serve and remember every day. And when I forget, I soon come back into remembering--that I am (and you are!)an aspect of something far more incredible than we will or could ever imagine. Be awed. Say thank you.

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